[KPOP] Done
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Heechul / Hyukjae (hints of past relationships)
457 words
G ; Angst
Summary: Hyukjae’s believes he’s a patient man. But maybe it’s time to let go.
A/N: ANGST. So rumours are flying about why Hyukjae was so upset during Inkigayo today. My muse decides to go into overdrive. It’s scary, the way she announces her return. Whatever is making you upset, Hyukjae, I hope you will be happy soon. TT
I love you from the day we met; I know you love me too
But at this point walking away is the best thing we can do
- ‘These Eyes’ : India Arie
Hyukjae isn’t sure he can do this anymore.
He smiles, he eats, he sleeps, he dreams. He will add ‘he loves’ to the formula, if loving isn’t so completely difficult. He’s tired, he adds. He knows he’s tired.
It isn’t completely easy being in love with someone who blows hot and cold.
Hot, when he comes down to Hyukjae’s room sometimes, and takes over his PC. Those nights, they snuggle on Hyukjae’s tiny bed, happy, content.
Other days, like today, he’s screaming loud enough for everyone outside to hear, screaming at Hyukjae not to cry, but Hyukjae can’t stop. The tears just flow, and he brushes them away with his hands, or turns away, or even in the end hides his head in his hands, but he knows Hyukjae is crying. He always knows. And he’s not happy. At all.
Hyukjae is a patient person- he knows he is, his previous experiences at relationship and the nagging from Sora when everyone except him had admitted his last relationship was over proved it. Hyukjae likes comfort- he likes having someone close and he’s willing to do almost everything to have it.
But now, he’s not so sure.
“I’m sick of this. We’re done,” he says, sneering (sneering! It hurts so much when he does that, Hyukjae thinks), before he crashes out of the dressing room, Siwon hot on his heels.
Hyukjae finishes the winner’s speech in Inkigayo with tears in his eyes. He’s genuinely happy they’ve won, but he has no idea why Eeteuk wants him to talk when all he wants to do is fall apart.
“Get your act together,” Eeteuk whispers in the van, and he can tell Donghae is pretending not to eavesdrop (But he is; he always is). “There’s so much we have to do.”
When finally, finally the day is over- Hyukjae’s body is completely sore – like it always is after doing a variety show that requires jumping and throwing yourself all over the place, he steps into the dorm and smiles at Yesung and Sungmin, excusing himself to go back to his room.
He nearly jumps to the roof when a cold, calmly hand touches his wrist. Then he smells the alcohol.
“Sorry, Hyukjae,” he slurs. “You know how I am. I’m sorry. Tell me you love me. Tell me you love me.”
And the tears come again.
“I know hyung,” Hyukjae tries to smile but the tears, coupled with the darkness just makes everything blurry, and Hyukjae thinks he might be going blind. “But I think,” he whispers. “I can’t do this anymore. I’m not a replacement- I’m not what you want.”
Then Hyukjae helps Heechul on the bed, draws the covers over him and heads to Donghae’s room to sleep.
Heechul / Hyukjae (hints of past relationships)
457 words
G ; Angst
Summary: Hyukjae’s believes he’s a patient man. But maybe it’s time to let go.
A/N: ANGST. So rumours are flying about why Hyukjae was so upset during Inkigayo today. My muse decides to go into overdrive. It’s scary, the way she announces her return. Whatever is making you upset, Hyukjae, I hope you will be happy soon. TT
I love you from the day we met; I know you love me too
But at this point walking away is the best thing we can do
- ‘These Eyes’ : India Arie
Hyukjae isn’t sure he can do this anymore.
He smiles, he eats, he sleeps, he dreams. He will add ‘he loves’ to the formula, if loving isn’t so completely difficult. He’s tired, he adds. He knows he’s tired.
It isn’t completely easy being in love with someone who blows hot and cold.
Hot, when he comes down to Hyukjae’s room sometimes, and takes over his PC. Those nights, they snuggle on Hyukjae’s tiny bed, happy, content.
Other days, like today, he’s screaming loud enough for everyone outside to hear, screaming at Hyukjae not to cry, but Hyukjae can’t stop. The tears just flow, and he brushes them away with his hands, or turns away, or even in the end hides his head in his hands, but he knows Hyukjae is crying. He always knows. And he’s not happy. At all.
Hyukjae is a patient person- he knows he is, his previous experiences at relationship and the nagging from Sora when everyone except him had admitted his last relationship was over proved it. Hyukjae likes comfort- he likes having someone close and he’s willing to do almost everything to have it.
But now, he’s not so sure.
“I’m sick of this. We’re done,” he says, sneering (sneering! It hurts so much when he does that, Hyukjae thinks), before he crashes out of the dressing room, Siwon hot on his heels.
Hyukjae finishes the winner’s speech in Inkigayo with tears in his eyes. He’s genuinely happy they’ve won, but he has no idea why Eeteuk wants him to talk when all he wants to do is fall apart.
“Get your act together,” Eeteuk whispers in the van, and he can tell Donghae is pretending not to eavesdrop (But he is; he always is). “There’s so much we have to do.”
When finally, finally the day is over- Hyukjae’s body is completely sore – like it always is after doing a variety show that requires jumping and throwing yourself all over the place, he steps into the dorm and smiles at Yesung and Sungmin, excusing himself to go back to his room.
He nearly jumps to the roof when a cold, calmly hand touches his wrist. Then he smells the alcohol.
“Sorry, Hyukjae,” he slurs. “You know how I am. I’m sorry. Tell me you love me. Tell me you love me.”
And the tears come again.
“I know hyung,” Hyukjae tries to smile but the tears, coupled with the darkness just makes everything blurry, and Hyukjae thinks he might be going blind. “But I think,” he whispers. “I can’t do this anymore. I’m not a replacement- I’m not what you want.”
Then Hyukjae helps Heechul on the bed, draws the covers over him and heads to Donghae’s room to sleep.
